I Recall Standing As Though Nothing Could Fall

by Matthew Ryan

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Matthew Ryan
I Recall Standing As Though Nothing Could Fall
 
"And my thought now is, could the world ever be as kind as I thought it was then?" - Here Comes The Snow

"There's nothing precious about the songs here, but rather Matthew Ryan's incisive view of how and why we do what we do.  Whether it's the provocatively imploring anthem "Hey Kid," or the grinding, barely suppressed rage of "All Hail The Kings Of Trash," or the late-night Tom Waits meets Sinatra longing of "Song For A Friend," this is a record that covers a lot of ground as it keeps its focus on the individual. Images of dresses on the floor, planes floating through snow, drunken proclamations and silenced lovers all glide by while not only blurring the lines between heroes and villains, but also blurring the borders between genres. "I Want Peace" thumps and prowls with the urban rumble of hip-hop, "Harmonium Song" sounds a hundred years old with its sorrowful Irish melody and "All of That Means Nothing Now" careens with that broken-hearted seethe that harks back to the air that punctuated much of Ryan's earlier work on May Day. No stone is left unturned on I Recall Standing As Though Nothing Could Fall, and together it all forms a perfect mosaic of Ryan's view of the modern struggle where despair and optimism coexist and perseverance alone resembles victory." C.S. June 2011

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released June 22, 2011

Matthew Ryan started recording I Recall Standing As Though Nothing Could Fall in his Nashville home studio in June of 2010. He wouldn't finish until April of 2011. Barring a european tour, a film score and a brief vacation it was a day and night affair. That kind of commitment and isolation could drive anyone mad, but luckily it wasn't a solitary process, I Recall Standing As Though Nothing Could Fall is possibly Ryan's most collaborative album to date. For the first time since 2008 Ryan invited a producer into the process by having Greg Richling produce "Hey Kid," and the long list of friends that contributed range from Olly Knights of Turin Brakes, Katie Herzig, Patrick O'Hearn, Stanton Adcock, Amanda Shires, and Marc Byrd and Andrew Thompson of the ambient duo Hammock. Long time collaborators and friends Brian Bequette, Kate York, Billy Mercer, Molly Thomas, Chris Tench and Strays Don't Sleep cohort Neilson Hubbard also chimed in with their talents.

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Matthew Ryan is experiencing a noisy renaissance. It began in 2014 with "Boxers" and now with "Hustle Up Starlings" we see the follow-through.
Produced by Brian Fallon, "Starlings" shimmers with silvery anthems & a captivating focus. The set clocks in at 40 minutes with no prevarication or bluster, just a celebratory noise alight w/ hearts, broken-in voices & poetry.
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Track Name: The Sea
The Sea
Written By Matthew Ryan

I took the stage
To talk to you
But you weren't there
I paid my dues
You disappeared
Like you always did
It made me sad
It made me sick

Oh oh oh
Here we go
I'm not the same
Something's changed
I thought the sea
Would swallow me
But now I'm free
But now I'm free

Alcohol
And empty rooms
Come yesterday
A sonic boom
I recreate
This broken heart
That haunted home
That broken start

Oh oh oh
Here we go
I'm not the same
Something's changed
I thought the sea
Would swallow me
But now I'm free
But now I'm free

To each life
A moment comes
A moment comes
For me it's now
And here it comes
Here it comes

Oh oh oh
Here we go
I'm not the same
Something's changed
I thought the sea
Would swallow me
But now I'm free
But now I'm free
Track Name: Summer In the South
Summer In The South
Written by Matthew Ryan & Neilson Hubbard

And so she said
I've had enough of almost there
I wanna know what it's like
Wanna know what it's like
Wanna know what it's like

Some nights I crave
Your body heat in conversation
I wanna know what it's like
Wanna know what it's like
Wanna know what it's like
To live
With You
To give
To you
To not
Be without
You
This Summer In The South

And so I said
I'm sick and tired of these foreign accents
I wanna know what it's like
Wanna know what it's like
Wanna know what it's like

To come home
and find you sleeping with the TV on
I wanna know what it's like
Wanna know what it's like
Wanna know what it's like
To live
With You
To give
To you
To not
Be without
You
This Summer In The South

Last night she said
I watched a plane disappear into space
Wanna know what it's like
Wanna know what it's like
Wanna know what it's like

Last night I said
I watched a plane slowly land near here
Wanna know what it's like
Wanna know what it's like
Wanna know what it's like
To live
With You
To give
To you
To not
Be without
You
This Summer In The South
Track Name: Hey Kid
Hey Kid
Written by Matthew Ryan, Greg Richling & Phil Sidlow

Hey kid
Your story's not dead yet
I know it's all fucked up
I know it feels hopeless
Yeah

Hey kid
Your heart is a weapon
Against the fools of armageddon
Uhhhh huh...

Hey kid
The static's getting thicker
I hope you can still picture
A world without tears
We need you here
We need you here

Hey Kid...

We got soul on command
We got sex on demand
We got everything but nothing's really real
We got hyper confession
We got constant compression
We got fatigue and violence
A war against silence
When all we need is something we can feel

Ok alright
Ok alright
Ok alright it's not alright
Ok alright it's not alright
You'll have to fight
The war inside
The endless night
That's modern life
That's modern life

We got soul on command
We got sex on demand
We got everything but nothing's really real
Track Name: I Don't Want A Third World War
I Don't Want A Third World War
Written By Matthew Ryan

Our darkness is catching up with us
We're turning to cannibals
Darkness is catching up with us
We're acting like animals
Look a child in the eye and say
What were you hoping for?
You shouldn't expect too much
Look a child in the eye and say
What are you crying for?
You should never expect too much from us

But I don't want a third world war
A third world war
A third world war
No I don't want a third world war
A third world war
A third world war

Now nothing ever happens
Unless you want it to happen
Unless you want it really
No nothing ever happens
Unless you want it to happen
Unless you want it
Completely

I don't want a third world war
A third world war
A third world war
No I don't want a third world war
A third world war
A third world war

Now nothing ever happens
Unless you want it to happen
Unless you want it really
No nothing ever happens
Unless you want it to happen
Unless you want it
Completely

I don't want a third world war
A third world war
A third world war
No I don't want a third world war
A third world war
A third world war
Track Name: The Spinning Room
The Spinning Room
Written by Matthew Ryan, Marc Byrd
and Andrew Thomson

Let's draw a curtain on this scene
I'm not judgmental, I'm not mean
But there's a bad vibe in this bar
Outside there's somewhere under the stars
All this neon makes me sick
Know your limits, that's the trick
I should've known when we walked in
First Kesha, then Eminem then...
1 shot
2 shots
3 shots
Boom
4 shots
5 shots
6 shots
The spinning room
I love everybody
I love everyone
I'm not leaving too soon
I'll finish when I'm done
Have you met my new friend Tito?
He's a generous guy
He said the red ones keep you grounded
But it's the blue ones you should try
Track Name: Harmonium Song
Harmonium Song
Written By Matthew Ryan

Tonight there's rain
All on the hill
And tonight I miss my brother
In every heart
Some bitter pills
And tonight I miss my brother
We use to laugh and drink and lean for tomorrow

For each of us
A great story
We rarely share with others
But I was spared
And he was not
And tonight I miss my brother
His last letter home arrived just a day after he died
Track Name: All Of That Means Nothing Now
All Of That Means Nothing Now
Written By Matthew Ryan

We stood outside the
Supermarket
Such a strange cold place
For such a sad sad thing
And we weren't talking
Your eyes were frozen
But you looked so pretty love
You were still my favorite thing

And cars drove by us
And people smiled inside
And I hated every one
For their simple easy lives
Then I felt something
Like a dam that broke
A rush of every sea
I still love you in my throat

But all of that love
All of that love
All of that love...
Means nothing now

We stood outside the
Supermarket
Such strange cold place
For such a sad sad thing
And you weren't talking
Your eyes were frozen
But you looked so pretty love
When you handed me your ring

But all of that love
All of that love
All of that love...
Means nothing now
Track Name: I Still Believe In You (Featuring Olly Knights of Turin Brakes)
I Still Believe In You
Written by Matthew Ryan

I can't sleep
I can't wake
My life support my dear has gone away
I work so hard
I break at noon
I watch the same plot unfold there but never soon
And I still believe in you

I want so much
That never comes
The traffic moves so slowly
Feeling numb
And I still believe in you

Late last night
From on the roof
I smoked a cigarette, I looked for proof
And in the quiet
I watched a plane
Hum and float through the snow while I said your name
And I still believed in you

I take a shower
I brush my teeth
I feel the rug being pulled from under me
And I still believe in you
Track Name: My Darker Side
My Darker Side
Written by Matthew Ryan

I can't wait
Anymore
Her dress is off
And on the floor
My darker side
Has come to this
I walked the line
Until I slipped

Taxi please
Take me home
She's in the dark
And all alone
And I can't stand
A mercy killing
But I know what I am now
I'm the villain

But I'll say please
Honey please
Yeah I'll say please
Forgive me

The chariot
That I ride
In sheets of rain
And cherry light
And I recall
A promise made
In some other room
When I was brave
I close my eyes
I smell her skin
I'm at the door
The air is thin
The water's deep
The key is in
And I was supposed to be home hours ago
Yeah I was supposed to be home hours ago

So I'll say please
Honey please
Yeah I'll say please
Forgive me
Forgive me
Track Name: Here Comes The Snow
Here Comes The Snow
Written by Matthew Ryan

Ain't it just like the times
To play tricks on your mind
You've seen so much, so soon
You're already blind
And when someone asks you how you're doin'?
Of course you say you're doing fine

Surrounded by wolves
There's a baby in the rain
Down the street there's a sparrow
Circling a drain
While a waitress mouths the words to a song
That lobotomized her pain

Ohhh hey la ohhh
Hey la ohhh
Here comes the snow

The future's always coming
And it moves just like a fist
Time takes the things you love
And puts a ghost upon your lips
When nothing really matters, nothing matters
More than this

Revolutions flicker out
In the wars of all for me
Follow an idea to its root
And you'll eventually reach the sea
Full of rusted parts and corpses
And broken metaphors like these

Ohhh hey la ohhh
Hey la ohhh
Here comes the snow

My eyes are on the wasteland
The boiler room of humankind
There's a toy piano playing
And there's a memory in my mind
Mom's humming in the kitchen
Clothes are drying on the line

Nightfall was upon us now
All the trees were skeletons
Closed my eyes and felt the sun's heat
Disappear from on my skin
And my thought now is could the world ever be
As kind as I thought it was then?

Ohhh hey la ohhh
Hey la ohhh
Here comes the snow
Track Name: I Want Peace
I Want Peace
Written by Matthew Ryan

There are villains in high places
There are villains in the dirt
There are heroes in the silence
There is wisdom where you hurt
I took a drag and made it beauty
I took a beauty and made her beg
When I pushed too hard I relented
And I said that I was only pulling your leg

Cause I want peace
Yeah I want peace
For you
And for me
For you and me

I wouldn't say that I'm a pacifist
I wouldn't say I'm going rogue
But this soap star's the worst kind of weapon
Throwing bombs like they were ropes
You know the facts are being murdered
By the din of politics
And in the ways that we avoid each other
While the big clock tics
There's a violence in doing nothing
As if the plot could be ignored
Just because you've picked your poison
Doesn't mean the wolf's not at your door
I get no thrill from bringing bad news
I'd much rather make you smile
But I refuse to be a passenger
As we smile…
And swallow up the miles

Cause I want peace
Yeah I want peace
Cause I want peace
Yeah I want peace
For you
And for me
For you and me
Track Name: Song For A Friend
Song For A Friend
Written by Matthew Ryan

Oh my friend
It's sad how we've grown apart
And so it went
And we can't get back to the start
When we'd smile and click our heels
And float like drunk Sinatras
The wonder and the feel
Their smiles became our mantra

Oh my friend
I'm worried
Time's a shark
And in a hurry

Brotherhood
And glowing cigarettes
Twas understood
The warmth in wintry breath

Dear Lord
I'm worried
Time's a shark
And in a hurry

A ferris wheel
Sparkles on the hill
And traffic moves
Like a swarm of sparks were spilled
On nights like this
I drink my share of whiskey
And wade in the flood of loneliness
That was so foreign when you were with me
Track Name: All Hail The Kings Of Trash
All Hail The Kings Of Trash
Written by Matthew Ryan

Ahhh you must be proud
Cause you got so loud
As you were walking in
And I was walking out

Tonight we're in the hum
Of the blank and dumb
I hate to talk in spades
I hoped we might escape

The whole scene's been took
By parasites and crooks
Souled out and hungry ids
That's where the whole thing slid

And that's the awful truth
And it's a crime on youth
Cause that's the way it went
The wholesale death of innocents

All hail the kings of trash
All hail the kings of trash
All hail the kings of trash
All hail the kings of trash

Don't need to know your name
Because you're all the same
That shiny plastic grin
More heart in mannequins

A manufactured past
Now you're talking trash
Too stupid to rebel
We got Straight To Hell

And that's the awful truth
And it's a crime on youth
Cause that's the way it went
The wholesale death of innocents

All hail the kings of trash
All hail the kings of trash
All hail the kings of trash
All hail the kings of trash