Maybe I'll Disappear

from by Matthew Ryan

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Maybe I’ll Disappear

Start the car
Start the car
Can't see the stars
Can't see the stars
I'm sick & tired
Of feeling alone
Turn on the heat
Put down the phone
Maybe I'll just disappear
There's nothing left to keep me here

I watched her turn
And grab her things
I sat and prayed
For the phone to ring
I played a song
Like there was nothing else
I found a girl and I pretended
She was someone else
Yeah I know
It wasn't fair

It's just so strange
How we get stuck
What once meant nothing
Now means so much
I saw your name
On some unopened mail
I threw away
I stood right there and picked it up
Yeah things have been pretty rough

Nothing but the lights
On the dash
Every little bit hurts
When you're in the pass
The drawl of leaves
And that quiet cold
That settles in
Once you know
We're all hotels
There ain't no home
And everything we had
Was just a loan

Start the car
Start the car
Can't see the stars
Can't see the stars
I miss the simplest of scenes
You in the dark just over me
Your hair a mess
Your eyes aglow
The engine hums
It starts to snow


from Hustle Up Starlings, released May 12, 2017
Performed By:

Brian Bequette - Piano
Brian Fallon & Brad Pemberton - Percussion & Noise
Matthew Ryan - Vocal


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Matthew Ryan Nashville, Tennessee

Matthew Ryan is experiencing a kind of noisy renaissance. It began with Boxers then Hustle Up Starlings in 2017.

His 1997 debut album, May Day, has been celebrated by Paste Magazine as one of the best albums released in the 1990s.

Persevering & devotedly independent Ryan continues to grow a sprawling career that's now rich with a long list of beautiful albums and songs.

(Pic by Chad Cochran)
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